Anxious night and day.

Everything seem to went Ok for our Radhashtami celebration until yesterday. A heavy rain made all the confusion. It was an anxious night and half a day where everything was uncertain. But in a way it was good where even I prayed the lord asking for help. Merciful Gaura Nitai. My mentor told me not to react for the situation for half a day.It was a biggest austerity. I was looking at the watch for 12 o clock to strike as though Im going to launch a rocket to start reacting :) (this is what i do for half day fasting...)

But suddenly things started settling down on its own. Today exactly when GM would have reached Chennai, everything got resolved and we are all set again.May be our problem is the first one which GM would have addressed as soon as he reached our place :) Tried to catch up with the pending follow up calls. Gpp became busy training the kids for the program.Blissful in GM's vani seva.

Hoping to see my merciful father tomorrow.

JBS Mercy

Jagannath Baladev and Subadra had always been super merciful on me and showering their mercy..
Sooner or Later I will fufill their demand :) :)

A blissful Radhashtami..

Started the day with Mayapur Mangala arati. Radharani was so beautifully dressed up.Then we had Mangala arati to wake up our Gaura Nitai. Did our Chanting and took darshan of GuruMaharaj. Cooked 11 items for the pleasure of Gaura Nitai on Radhashtami day. They took their bath and had a feast.Red everywhere.Consciously I kept more bhoga :)

GN had cake for noon.

Evening we had a small celebration where 32 people turned up. Nice altar arrangement was made. Red everywhere :) Most of them fasted 1/2 days for Radharani's birthday. We had a small kirtan, GPP gave a pravachan, Q and A session, Maha arati, Cake cutting and we served prasad. It was short and sweet 2 hrs program.

All glories to GuruMaharaj who can use even a incapable servant like us in his service.

I'm rich

My initial understanding of anartha was all what I learnt in my moral science classes . No stealing, No hurting, No lieing etc..After coming to KC, 3 to 4 years ago when a devotee told me that we are filled with anarthas, I did not bother about it much, not because I agreed but my mentality was Iam good just that this devotee doesnt know :).

Then later as I started associating with devotees I realised anarthas list was not simple. It is such a huge list - False ego,Doubts, fault finding nature, enviousness, fear, challenging spirit, Duplicitous ,defending, desire for name and fame,Material attachment, Pride, speculative interpretation, Depression, self pity, sentimentality , anger etc.Now I understand Im very rich atleast in having these anarthas as I can see my name under each anarthas.

Anartha nivrtti process is also not so easy.Identifying, understanding, accepting and act according to the instruction given by seniors.Every step hurts. Tolerant devotees they know my anarathas and still adjust, acknowledge and try to engage me in my own Guru's service. 

Scripture says it is sheer mandate to come to the stage of anartha-nivritti, the stage where all

unclean things are cleansed from the heart.But prabhupada gives us a simple solution for all the anarthas in one shot - If one is actually executing devotional service,then anarthas, the unwanted things associated with material enjoyment, will automatically disappear.

(Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu 1.4 .15)

Will I be serious in KC if I know my life span ?

catur-vidhā bhajante māḿ

janāḥ sukṛtino 'rjuna

ārto jijñāsur arthārthī

jñānī ca bharatarṣabha

"Out of these there are four classes of men-those who are sometimes distressed, those who are in need of money, those who are sometimes inquisitive, and those who are sometimes searching after knowledge of the Absolute Truth. These persons come to the Supreme Lord for devotional service under different conditions. (BG 7.16)"

Yesterday we met a family who were under tremendous material suffering. A 10 year old boy who was very active, is now counting his days due to a life threatening disease. And the doctor has warned that the next child of that family may also have a similar disease. Poor parents. But everyone was glorifying the mother, for she takes so much care for her diseased son. I felt so sorry for that family and for a moment, I felt the urgency of preaching and reaching this Krsna consciousness to more people & to that grieving family in particular. Srila Prabhupad says in SB 6.16.6 

The same living entity sometimes takes shelter of an animal father and mother and sometimes a human father and mother. Sometimes he accepts a father and mother among the birds, and sometimes he accepts a demigod father and mother. Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu therefore says: 

brahmanda bhramite kona bhagyavan jiva

guru-krishna-prasade paya bhakti-lata-bija

Harassed life after life by the laws of nature, the living entity wanders throughout the entire universe in different planets and different species of life. Somehow or other, if he is fortunate enough, he comes in touch with a devotee who reforms his entire life. Then the living entity goes back home, back to Godhead. Therefore it is said:

Janame janame sabe pita mata paya

krishna guru nahi mile baja hari ei

In the transmigration of the soul through different bodies, everyone, in every form of life -- be it human, animal, tree or demigod -- gets a father and mother. This is not very difficult. The difficulty is to obtain a bona fide spiritual master and Krishna. Therefore the duty of a human being is to capture the opportunity to come in touch with Krishna's representative, the bona fide spiritual master. Under the guidance of the spiritual master, the spiritual father, one can return home, back to Godhead.

Krsna's mercy we are doing super good when compared to so many people around us. I feel that my family is being taken good care of by our Gurumaharaj H.H.Jayapataka swami. Hope we be intelligent enough to make hay while the sun shines.

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